Hey Syu.

Uninteresting human being.

Monday, 3 December 2012

Sunday, 14 October 2012

Tak mampu nak kasih sayang lama sangat dengan Ubu-niichan bila ada Akira yang begitu Bishi. XD

Really ought to sleep. I'm getting more and more nonsensical. haha
Tiba-tiba mempunyai rasa kasih sayang kepada Ubukata.
Dah la comel.
Pandai main gitar
Super duper hensem plak tu.

Oh noes.
Tak boleh kasih sayang sangat.
Laki orang.

Wednesday, 15 August 2012

kasih sayang dan definisinya

Bagi saya...

Bassist paling hebat pada pandangan saya adalah Hinatch.

Guitarist paling hebat pada pandangan saya adalah Takboss.

Vocal paling hebat pada pandangan saya adalah IKE.

Drummer paling hebat pada pandangan saya adalah Chihiro.


Saya paling sayang Ryota
Saya paling sayang Toru
Saya paling sayang Taka
Saya paling sayang Tomoya

Inilah dipanggil


p/s: Lama tak update blog ni. Skali skala meluahkan perasaan. Bukan sapa pun baca lol 

Friday, 18 May 2012



Tuesday, 10 April 2012


This, that last few minutes of the video where he rapped with raspy voice?

[MV] EXO-K(엑소엠) - MAMA(마마) 'Korean Ver... by makino-tsukushi

That isn't a freaking screamo.



COLDRAIN - " Die Tomorrow " by jamiecat

When he screamed, is screamo.


I hate kpop logic.

Friday, 6 April 2012

erm..this is awkward

Someone actually came across this blog after searching for.. erm..

Alex Onizawa Naked.




Go to my tumblr and dig around. You'll find it. Eventually. :p

Thursday, 5 April 2012



Can't wait.

But it's not like I have much of a choice. XD


Wednesday, 4 April 2012


Song by : ENGU
Lyrics by : ENGU

So stuck up riding that limo
They drive the little girl all insane
Trying to represent the poor with shining badge

So sick, I'm tired of all the stupid rules, fools
Pounding on our dreams to abuse lust
Concealing the problem
I'm gonna hang around more than they think.

This is, This is,
This time we're living in
I'm not gonna lose myself
Please, please give me the love.
This is, This is,
This time we're living in
I'm gonna live my life
Please, please give me the love

The love honesty is burning down in the smoking roof
Money mad sucking up dollar bills
Ganging up on distorted power

I'm so dry because of all the lies
Prides, drenching in all the hopes
No, they're not in control.
You gotta hang on
More than they think

This is, This is,
This time we're living in
I'm not gonna lose myself
Please, please give me the love.
This is, This is,
This time we're living in
I'm gonna live my life
Please, please give me the love

Start that riot
Make that noise
We're not giving up anyone

This is, This is,
This time we're living in
I'm not gonna lose myself
Please, please give me the love.
This is, This is,
This time we're living in
I'm gonna live my life
Please, please give me the love

Tuesday, 27 March 2012

Deja Vu

He walks across a crowded street
She stops to buy a magazine
He looks at her as he walks by
She lifts her head a second late
She turns around but it's too late
He's joined another crowd by then

Some how, she's felt this way before
There's something about him
But will he ever know?

Masato/Coldrain/Deja Vu

Sunday, 25 March 2012

Final Destination

Final Destination

I, I used to fear
Am I falling back or moving forward
But now when I come to a crossroad
I hear this voice in my head
Scream these words once again

I can't look back, not anymore
I've given up too much to throw this away now
I can't look back, not anymore
Cause I know (know) now (now)
I'm heading to my final destination

I, I used to hear
All their static just got in my ear
But now I know, it doesn't matter
They can say what they want, cause I'm not listening

I can't look back, not anymore
I've given up too much to throw this away now
I can't look back, not anymore
Cause I know (know) now (now)
I've finally found my way to go

So I can't turn back (I can't turn back)
I'll keep moving forward

They can try to take away
With all the words they say
But I don't really care cause I'm not listening

They can try to take away
With all the words they say
But I don't really care cause I'm not listening (No!)

I can't look back, not anymore
I've given up too much to throw this away now
I can't look back, not anymore
Cause I know (know) now (now)
I've finally found my way to go

So I can't turn back (I can't turn back)
I'll keep moving forward



Tapi alhamdulillah. Seronoknya dapat jumpa saudara-mara.

Mahu pergi Singapore lagi.

Kali ini untuk holiday.

Dan mesti
mesti mesti mesti
lawat *Scape


Tuesday, 20 March 2012




I cried a few times..too emotional.
And screamed too.

Seriously. This is like - only a glimpse of the whole dvd.

*wants dvd*

And and.



Okay. Let me be calm and collected. And say what I wanted to say.

Dearest ONE OK ROCK メンバの皆さん、


Thank you, for the great songs you've given us for so long

Thank you, for the great lives you've performed

Thank you, for the great emotions you've given

Thank you, for the great people you gave us the chance to meet

Thank you, for the great joy you've given us

Thank you, for - for everything.

You've given not only songs


Joyful hours

But most importantly

Your music - even if my only a little - has help some people with their lives.

For that,

Thank you ONE OK ROCK.

Thank you.

You're the best band I could ever stan



Monday, 19 March 2012

Going home now.


I'm gonna watch the concert


Spamming but what the hell eh.;D

I don't usually talk about clothes and shoes.




Isn't in Malaysia. And I want the jacket.

I hetchu Ryota Ojisan for promoting everything Hurley. *cries*
The hoodies is super cool and awesome.

The t-shirts too are really really coolness.

Even the boxer - uh.. Nevermind on that.

Water bottle too!


Yet it's not in Malaysia.

WHY self why? Why do you like men clothings???

Oh also.

I need to hunt some vans shoes.

I wonder if the leopard print one is available in Malaysia.


Syu is looking for leopard print shoes. Only I want vans/converse. But I think I want vans. Converse has really really heavy shoes. Like super heavy I can't run in it.

Talk about converse. Mine is less than a year and it's tattered and battered. Pfft. Overusing XD But I think my red converse is happy being used. I should buy another converse. Only this time. I want it in a colour I've never had before.



So I can pair it with my purple jeans for deitos with Madi/Chii/Nasyer-tachi. And maybe I'll use it on Friday too.

Maybe not a good idea.


But first I need to find cool leopard print vans. If it even exist.

And then hi-cut leather-like shoes.

And then - shocking pink hi-cut converse.

But I know in the end.

Money won't go to the closet.

All will go to the racks.

Book racks and dvd racks.


I know I'm not making sense. But my brain just isn't functioning fully right now. I'm - I - eruhjsdkjkjkdjlk!!  I can't explain. Below photos will explain.

Okay maybe I'll explain. In a few words.







Makes no sense but.



I finally understand - what drove me to stop stanning Arashi as much as I did before.

It's not them. It's me. Peh kau ayat putus cinta.

When I first started to like Arashi, they were already really really big. They had the AAA and stuffs. But. They were not everywhere. Sure they have a lot of shows. But..How do I explain this. They have shows, dramas, singles, concerts, albums. Everything. Oh. And CMs. And I love all that. But at the same time it's tiring.

I love ONE OK ROCK and my Jrocks. I hope they get bestsellers for every single/album/dvd they're releasing. But. I wish they'll stay out of regular variety shows or dramas out of a sudden.

I.. love them. But the anticipation of waiting for the band to release something is .. for the lack of better word and I totally forgot the English - kurushii. But the moment they release stuffs -

bam wham pham!

K.O on my side.

I don't know how to explain it. It just feel so damn good.

I used to feel the same towards Arashi. The anticipation of waiting for a drama for a member. The single the cm the everything. But they have dramas every season now. Not saying it's a bad thing. Hell. I hope that pattern will continue for the next 20 years. But it's tiring. I'm not the kind who stan only 1 person in a band. But..when it comes to Arashi, I end up following only a certain person's progress or activities. And I feel bad about it.

I'm not comparing jrock and jpop or in this case Arashi specifically. I'm just justifying myself.

For myself.

I feel the need to do so. This blog isn't publicize everywhere because of this habit of mine. Telling myself why I feel what I feel.

Uh. Nevermind.

I just felt like talking okay.

And now I'm done.


YokoArena concert!!
I'll flail tonight.


If you fall down

Let me pick you up

No matter when

No matter how

Let me pick you up



And forever

Let me pick you up

Because after all

You're the best friend I could ever want

So love,

Let me pick you up

Let me pick you up

Let me pick you up

Let me pick you up


Allow me to pick you up

Let me pick you up

Sunday, 18 March 2012

Alex Onizawa Ramon

If for some unknown and unworldly chance that you come across this blog after googling yourself, know that I think you're one helluva rock person! Totally awesome. Then, now, always.

It's sad I got to know this awesome man's existence only after he left ONE OK ROCK. But nevertheless. I'm glad I got to know.

He's tall. He's half American half Japanese. He's fluent in both languages [I think]. And he has really weird accent.

And damn it Alex, you're pretty and handsome. Also, when I say his accent is weird, it is by no mean in a bad way. I love the accent. Adds to his.. originality.

And one of my favourite song was written by him.

He's funny and gorgeous. 

But when he's on stage, he's also cool and collected. I absolutely love the way he plays guitar.

He can be silly. But hey - that's because he has silly company. Not that it's a bad thing. It's charming ♥

Most of the time he's handsome though.

Yeap. In ONE OK ROCK or not, I still love Alexander Onizawa Ramon

Only I once sulked because you said you like KARA. それはだめですよ。ま。。It's absolutely personal choice. But. *sigh* 

Well. Other than the fact that you like KARA, I love every other aspect about you. ♥

Including the naked photoshoot.


hahaha joking joking XD

And because I love you for your talent - be it modelling or writing songs or playing guitar - the tag is gonna be yours alone. I'm not combining with your old band.

So Alex.


And uh.. For all the images above, don't sue me Alex love ♥ tehehe

Been more than a year



Too busy with lives.

But I seriously hope they'll release an album or something soon.

Then again.
They just released their FIRST EVER Live dvd
And the rock bands compilation.

Man I want that cd.
They have Low IQ 10, SiM, Man With A Mission and coldrain! I don't recognise the rest of the band list.
The ones stated above is majorness awesome. 8D

And I'll buy three days of adrenaline
Once I've got my Yoko Arena ONE OK ROCK.

Priority people.


Their dvd is considerably cheap for a big act like them.

But I still want new album from them. *nods*

Counterfeits and Lies

When the world is full of counterfeits and lies
We'll have to find a way to not go blind
Cuz this feeling deep inside
Is proof we still have time
To make it all right

Inside our tv screens 7 days a week
They dominate the waves just to
Make us walk,talk and act like them
Their shows called "reality"
But it's more like a joke to me
Tell me where did you leave your pride
Let's take it back
To how it used to be

-Masato/coldrain/Counterfeits and Lies

Notes of remembrance

I close my notes of remembrance
Cast these lines which intertwine
You make me feel so many things


Feel so alone
It feels alright

You make me never forget
You make me run at you, yes
You make me feel so many things

I close my notes of remembrance

-Hosomi/the HIATUS/Notes of Remembrance

Photoshoot - 17/03/2012

It's Uncle Ryota.

After a while we have a photoshoot today.

In the photo is Nisshi the hair and make up stylist.
She has been helping us for about 5 years.
Quite a Rock person.

Since there's a lot of recording and songs making lately, I want to do a live concert, soon...!!


Friday, 16 March 2012

Come On - SPYAIR

Song: IKE / UZ
Lyrics : MOMIKEN


寝静まったら 抜け出すから

くだらない事を 朝まで話そう

Come on. Come on. Come on. こっちにおいでよ
Come on. Come on. 俺がいるよ

つまらない ココには居場所が無い

ただ、ひとりになるのも コワいから
そう どこにも行けない

Come on. Come on. Come on. こっちにおいでよ
Come on. Come on. 俺がいるよ

そう 生きていけないんだ

Come on. Come on. Come on. こっちにおいでよ
Come on. Come on. 俺がいるよ


Come on over. Oh Come on. Come on.
Come on over.


Neshizumattara nukedasu kara
Itsumo no bashou de aou
Samui karada wo attatameteiku
Poketto no kan kohi nigirishimete

Kudaranai koto wo asa made hanasou
Tada, nakitai toki ni nakenai no wa,
Sou, tsuyogarinanda

Come on come on come on kocchi ni oide
Come on Come on Ore ga iru yo
Dare to itatte nugui kirenai
Sabishisa wo sukoshi wakeaou

MUSHAKUSHAsuru hanashigoe to
Samekitta TE-BURU de
Nigirishimeta KE-TAI no Music
Tsumaranai KOKO ni wa ibashou ga nai

Takusan no hito ni najime nakattanda
Tada, hitori ni naru no mo KOWAI kara
Sou doko demo ikenai

Come on come on come on kocchi ni oide
Come on Come on Ore ga iru yo
Dare to itatte nugui kirenai
Sabishisa wo sukoshi wakeaou

Dare datte hitori jya
Sou ikite ikenainda

Come on come on come on kocchi ni oide
Come on Come on Ore ga iru yo
Dare to itatte nugui kirenai
Sabishisa wo sukoshi wakeaou

Sukoshi wakeaou
Sabishi wo

Come on over. Oh Come on. Come on.
Come on over.
Koko ni iru kara.
Don't bother reading.

One Piece

I slept at almost 2am last night, reading this.
Up to chapter 69 now.
And it's getting more and more dokidoki :D:D:D


the Flare

Defuse all my rage
Calm my nerves down
Before it's too late to hear me

Bend the lens and face what's never seen
Clone the doubts and find what's buried here
Deep inside

We are star seeds
Fractions of pain
The waterfall inside us is drying up today

- Hosomi/the HIATUS/the Flare

Thursday, 15 March 2012

Of dancers and performers

I saw a post on tumblr. About uh...Jongin..? I don't know who he is. His leg was injured and he was hurting but he continued to practice dancing. And someone commented about how professional he was.

Momiken on the other hand, caught a flu and didn't come to perform on Coming Soon. But nobody said anything except Odaijini which was what I said too. lol

Out of the two, who do you think is the real professional?

My take?


Not because I hate kpop lol

But. As a dancer, a performer, I think if you can't give your 100% why bother? People wants to see the best of you, not the, "HOMG HE'S HURTING BUT HE'S TRYING HIS BEST FOR USSSS." No. Well maybe sometimes people do want to see that. But I thought as a performer you'd want to display the best of you.

What would make that Jongin dude a professional is if he actually stops practicing. Mend his hurt. And watch the practice and once his leg is okay, quickly learn it all.

That is a professional.

Seriously by forcing yourself to do things your body aren't ready to do isn't going to bring you anywhere. It's gonna hurt more and more and in the end, your body will give up. And then you have to stop. For good.

Not something anyone would want. No?

Seriously. Some people needs to get their definition of professionalism correct.

Momichan, GANBARE!

Nirvana - ONE OK ROCK

I wasn't the biggest fan of Nirvana. I know they exist. I listen to them. I don't stan them as hard as some people. But I do love their songs. And I know to not sing RAPEEE ME~~ in public lol /9gageffect

So uh they decided to do a tribute album for all the songs in Nevermind [TEH MOST EPIC ALBUM] and one of the bands contributing for the album is ONE OK ROCK!!

I was past excited for this news. lol Other bands includes 4 Minutes Till Midnight and 9mm Parabellum. Which are really good bands. And.

This morning. When I woke up.


freaking yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!

I love Taka's voice.



CD's gonna drop in April. So can't wait!

Wednesday, 14 March 2012

And this is how fandom helped me.

I was having quite a shitty day.
Worked in Menara because VADS had water cut. I don't mind that. Why would I? The people there are warm. Though the place is really really cold I felt like I was in a chiller.


It was a stressful day. Away from your usual workplace. Like, you miss the little trinkets from other people that you display on your desk. And you miss the team - like your boss because I have an awesome one 8D And.. you know,it just feels different. I sound like a puppy who can't sleep unless the place has its smell. lol And things happened. In real life and in uh..virtual life. So it's really stressful.

I'm glad though that the whole deal with Syahim was done. So much confusion I can't even - but it's ma~ma~settled so I'm good. So long we get the work done properly, I don't mind working off the hours. ^^ Not a workaholic - trust me. And I had a looooong talk with K. Huda. I've always thought she was Kota Bahru. Apparently she's not. LOOOOOOL 1 year knowing her and only today I actually cleared a very fundamental misunderstanding. Sorry Kak. My bad. XDDDD

And then.

There's the Tomoya blog post that made me really really really REEEEEEEEEEEAAAALLLY happy. I was just thinking, "when is Tomo-chan gonna update~~~ T^T" and then he did. I haz telepathic power. And the whole blog post was ♥

I was flailing with both Madi and Rae in different places. And it felt good. I was having really bad stress over something. I decided to forget. But I'm hardly a forgetful person when it comes to personal matter. lol full of revenge orz But, though they don't make me forget... They did make me..become..less stress. Keeps my mind off it.

And so.

That is how fandom helps me everyday.

Distract me from things I need to be distracted from.

And helps me focus on things I need to focus on.

And don't worry. I'm okay. ^^

Tomoya x House - a new pairing taking over Tomoya x food?


Is buying a house.

And he'll move in next week.






Bromancing - it's there in ONE OK ROCK.


Next he'll be blogging about his marriage.

And I'll die in despair. lol

And he posted that the recording is going great.

I can hear the word single floating in the air.

I can feel it coming.

Please single.

Open up the pre-order in late April.

I'm saving for your dvd darling. ♥

Rasa nak nangis tadi.



Tapi bila call mak tak angkat.

Rasa nak nangis jadi ganda 90.

Tapi nangis tak macho lah kan.

Playlist bengong lak tu kuarkan lagu Orange Range - ONE tu. Haih.

Tak jadi la nangis tapinya.

Tak macho.

Tak. Tak macho langsung.

Kau buat aku mahu cakap.

*rujuk gambar*

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

I Miss You

I Miss You あと少し側にいた
I miss you, I want you to be by my side just a bit more
even it's a mere illusion
I wanna have you, please stay there
I'll get you so have faith in me

"Busy" comes out as an excuse, but it's actually your signal of "I'm lonely"
days we can't meet each other, somehow
I got your clue but i just pretend i didn't
now I'm not going to ignore it ever again

- Momiken / SPYAIR / I Miss You

Wherever You Are

Someone I can love from my heart. 
Someone I love from my heart. 
In the center of my love, 
you, my heart, are there.

Wherever you are, I always make you smile 
Wherever you are, I'm always by your side 
Whatever you say, you're always on my mind 
I promise you "forever" right now

- Takahiro / ONE OK ROCK / Wherever You Are

Monday, 12 March 2012


How much can you laugh?
When no human can see you.

Though you're this close
They don't even notice

In the endless night
The white horse runs

I just wanted to see this blue
I just wanted to keep it true
I just wanted to be with you and make you happy
Is this too much to ask for now

-Hosomi / the HIATUS / unicorn


I make a song to feel alright
When no one comes and the summer is cold
I make a song and sing like shit
When the night hurts bad
And the sun is growing old

Just turn me into something else
So I feel so fine
So I feel so close
You just turn me into someone else
And I feel so fine
And I feel so close to you

-Hosomi / the HIATUS / snowflakes

Sunday, 11 March 2012


Ryotaくん、いつもありがとう。バンド支えてくれてありがとう。Tomoyaくん、出会ってくれてありがとう。そしてToru! ここ(武道館)に連れてきてくれてありがとう

Ryota, thank you. For upholding the band, thank you. Tomoya, for our encounter, thank you. And Toru! For leading us here (budoukan), thank you.


Saturday, 10 March 2012

My World


If I walk further ahead, the light is there

Bias list

Seriously. Sometimes I lose track on what Japanese bands/boybands I stan. orz

2. flumpool
4. NICO Touches The Wall
5. B'z
11. lego big morl
12. Orange Range
13. Plastic Tree
14. Galneryus
15. My First Story
16. fromus
17. Chronagus
18. Arashi
19. LEAD
20. GLAY
21. Ogre You Asshole
23. coldrain
24. Straightener
25. 9mm of Parabellum
27. 99RadioServices
28. SiM
29. When My Life Is Over

So far those are all.

O list, you shall be edited in the future.

Edited : 22nd April

Friday, 9 March 2012


It's scary. I'm kinda a commitment-phobic person. But then again. I rarely find something I'm not scared of. Roaches. Kills em all #likeaboss. Give me height - freak out. Dark waters - freak out like mad person especially when I have Nadhia's butt at the back of my head while my face is facing the salty wet sand. LOL Yes it happened. Clowns - freeeeeeeeeak out. Syringe - freak out. Blood - freak out. People passing out - freak out. Morgues - freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeak out. Dark place under the bed - freeeeeeeeeeeak out. Dog - freak out.

I can list on and on things I freak out whenever it's near me.

And then.

There's commitments.


Freaks out big time. MAJOR.

Not that I don't ever want to be in a relationship. But there's so many things you need to think about when you're in it. It's not just about the present. Whatever  is presented right in front of us this very moment, very second. But it's more so about the future. What we want to mold of it.

And that's scary.

Being alone taught me many things. Just because I don't have any boyfriend/fiance/husband I don't know anything at all.

Observing people.

Is the key.

And observing them, it scares me. More than being forced into a 100km roller coaster would.

Not that I'm saying I don't ever want to be in a relationship. Kau gila? LOL I'm a perfectly normal imperfect human being. But I'm just... not ready yet. I'm not going to bullshit about not being able to find the mr. right when I'm not even trying to find him.

I just.. want to enjoy my loneliness a little bit more.

Go shopping alone.
Read manga and cries [omg I do this all the time and I doubt there's any man who'd understand this behaviour]
Scream RYOTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA when I'm watching One OK Rock's concert.
Rolls around till I bump my head onto something literally when watching Tak Boss.
Play toys meant for 7 to 8 years old kids.
Sleep till noon.
Eat anything I want.
Not eat at all.
Head bang when I'm listening to OOR.


Those things aren't for someone who's in a relationship. Seriously. If I'm a dude and my girlfriend has Ryota on her wallpaper and goes ga-ga over some dude I'm not even interested with, I'd be all jealous. I mean, going ga-ga like a normal person is different. Me and Ryota? It's bordering obsession! Not obsession. No no. Not. Just. Slightly dangerous. Yeah...

So it's like, I need someone who can understand me and try not to change me overnight or expect me to stop me liking my Rock bands or anything I love. Because as much as they try to say it's for my own good,I still feel it's unfair. Someday I'll leave all these anime/rock world.......I think.I'm being realistic here. I mean,I'll mellow down and not scream RYOTAAAAAAAA whenever I see his picture/video/anything. I used to be JUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNN and now I'm not like that anymore. People change.

I changed.

It just takes time.

And I don't want to leave the fandom just yet.

And that is why, commitment = scary word for me.

More than I'm afraid of height.

Okay maybe it's the same level orz


Relationship before marriage - all these couples and lovers. Too complicated for my simple brain. Rather do what my mom did.

Marriage and then love. It's not an easy task looking at my parents. But for some reason, it seems sweeter. I want to be like them. Getting old together, date like high school students even when they're both 50 over. That is the kind of commitment I want. I mean, when I'm not afraid of it.

But to find a man who can shape us to be that way..

I'm just not seeing him yet I guess.


When Allah wills it, I will see him.

For now,

I'll love the troll and his friends ♥

p/s:Though being a fangirl is a commitment, what with the buying their stuffs and all,I'm not afraid of it. ;p
Double p/s: DAAAAAAAAAANGGG! Windows is forcing me to reformat my Ryota BB's mem card. Like hell I would. I'll just get a nu R4. In May. Donkey Kong - you can wait.
There was once I said I'm afraid about not being able to love another person like I love J.



Made it.

I love Ryota more now. And Sho.

Well. Especially Sho sometimes.

Probably because he's...closer to his fans. Like he shows his almost true self. Because seriously, nobody opens up everything to everyone.

But getting to see his quirks, what annoys him and what makes him laugh..



Kore wa suki dake ja nai.

Koi yo koi.



Most of the time I loves my Ryota bb moar~~~

Hensem siut ♥

Thursday, 8 March 2012

TMG Convention

I just feel like uploading some photos.

It was fun.

But I was burned.




Hensem. Siut.

I can't even.

Even if he has moobs.

With body like a wrestler.

But the guitar skill.

The headbanging hair look.

The -


He's like my food spammer on twitter.

And the fact that he was all,"I'm gonna slim down." and then post his katsudon lunch.


You're hot.
You're awesome.
You're so freaking cute I can't even -

Now I shall focus back on Ryota.

I'll leave Sho and his moobs,good food,hipster glasses and boshis aside.