光は進む先にある
If I walk further ahead, the light is there
-Momiken
Saturday 10 March 2012
Bias list
Seriously. Sometimes I lose track on what Japanese bands/boybands I stan. orz
1. ONE OK ROCK
2. flumpool
3. SPYAIR
4. NICO Touches The Wall
5. B'z
6. ELLEGARDEN
7. The HIATUS
8. ENGU
9. SAKANACTION
10. THE BAWDIES
11. lego big morl
12. Orange Range
13. Plastic Tree
14. Galneryus
15. My First Story
16. fromus
17. Chronagus
18. Arashi
19. LEAD
20. GLAY
21. Ogre You Asshole
22. NEW BREED
23. coldrain
24. Straightener
25. 9mm of Parabellum
26. The NAMPA BOYS
27. 99RadioServices
28. SiM
29. When My Life Is Over
So far those are all.
O list, you shall be edited in the future.
Edited : 22nd April
1. ONE OK ROCK
2. flumpool
3. SPYAIR
4. NICO Touches The Wall
5. B'z
6. ELLEGARDEN
7. The HIATUS
8. ENGU
9. SAKANACTION
10. THE BAWDIES
11. lego big morl
12. Orange Range
13. Plastic Tree
14. Galneryus
15. My First Story
16. fromus
17. Chronagus
18. Arashi
19. LEAD
20. GLAY
21. Ogre You Asshole
22. NEW BREED
23. coldrain
24. Straightener
25. 9mm of Parabellum
26. The NAMPA BOYS
27. 99RadioServices
28. SiM
29. When My Life Is Over
So far those are all.
O list, you shall be edited in the future.
Edited : 22nd April
Friday 9 March 2012
commitments
It's scary. I'm kinda a commitment-phobic person. But then again. I rarely find something I'm not scared of. Roaches. Kills em all #likeaboss. Give me height - freak out. Dark waters - freak out like mad person especially when I have Nadhia's butt at the back of my head while my face is facing the salty wet sand. LOL Yes it happened. Clowns - freeeeeeeeeak out. Syringe - freak out. Blood - freak out. People passing out - freak out. Morgues - freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeak out. Dark place under the bed - freeeeeeeeeeeak out. Dog - freak out.
I can list on and on things I freak out whenever it's near me.
And then.
There's commitments.
Marriage.
Relationship.
Children.
Freaks out big time. MAJOR.
Not that I don't ever want to be in a relationship. But there's so many things you need to think about when you're in it. It's not just about the present. Whatever is presented right in front of us this very moment, very second. But it's more so about the future. What we want to mold of it.
And that's scary.
Being alone taught me many things. Just because I don't have any boyfriend/fiance/husband I don't know anything at all.
Observing people.
Is the key.
And observing them, it scares me. More than being forced into a 100km roller coaster would.
Not that I'm saying I don't ever want to be in a relationship. Kau gila? LOL I'm a perfectly normal imperfect human being. But I'm just... not ready yet. I'm not going to bullshit about not being able to find the mr. right when I'm not even trying to find him.
I just.. want to enjoy my loneliness a little bit more.
Go shopping alone.
Read manga and cries [omg I do this all the time and I doubt there's any man who'd understand this behaviour]
Scream RYOTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA when I'm watching One OK Rock's concert.
Rolls around till I bump my head onto something literally when watching Tak Boss.
Play toys meant for 7 to 8 years old kids.
Sleep till noon.
Eat anything I want.
Not eat at all.
Head bang when I'm listening to OOR.
See?
Those things aren't for someone who's in a relationship. Seriously. If I'm a dude and my girlfriend has Ryota on her wallpaper and goes ga-ga over some dude I'm not even interested with, I'd be all jealous. I mean, going ga-ga like a normal person is different. Me and Ryota? It's bordering obsession! Not obsession. No no. Not. Just. Slightly dangerous. Yeah...
So it's like, I need someone who can understand me and try not to change me overnight or expect me to stop me liking my Rock bands or anything I love. Because as much as they try to say it's for my own good,I still feel it's unfair. Someday I'll leave all these anime/rock world.......I think.I'm being realistic here. I mean,I'll mellow down and not scream RYOTAAAAAAAA whenever I see his picture/video/anything. I used to be JUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNN and now I'm not like that anymore. People change.
I changed.
It just takes time.
And I don't want to leave the fandom just yet.
And that is why, commitment = scary word for me.
More than I'm afraid of height.
Okay maybe it's the same level orz
Meh.
Relationship before marriage - all these couples and lovers. Too complicated for my simple brain. Rather do what my mom did.
Marriage and then love. It's not an easy task looking at my parents. But for some reason, it seems sweeter. I want to be like them. Getting old together, date like high school students even when they're both 50 over. That is the kind of commitment I want. I mean, when I'm not afraid of it.
But to find a man who can shape us to be that way..
I'm just not seeing him yet I guess.
Well.
When Allah wills it, I will see him.
For now,
I'll love the troll and his friends ♥
p/s:Though being a fangirl is a commitment, what with the buying their stuffs and all,I'm not afraid of it. ;p
Double p/s: DAAAAAAAAAANGGG! Windows is forcing me to reformat my Ryota BB's mem card. Like hell I would. I'll just get a nu R4. In May. Donkey Kong - you can wait.
I can list on and on things I freak out whenever it's near me.
And then.
There's commitments.
Marriage.
Relationship.
Children.
Freaks out big time. MAJOR.
Not that I don't ever want to be in a relationship. But there's so many things you need to think about when you're in it. It's not just about the present. Whatever is presented right in front of us this very moment, very second. But it's more so about the future. What we want to mold of it.
And that's scary.
Being alone taught me many things. Just because I don't have any boyfriend/fiance/husband I don't know anything at all.
Observing people.
Is the key.
And observing them, it scares me. More than being forced into a 100km roller coaster would.
Not that I'm saying I don't ever want to be in a relationship. Kau gila? LOL I'm a perfectly normal imperfect human being. But I'm just... not ready yet. I'm not going to bullshit about not being able to find the mr. right when I'm not even trying to find him.
I just.. want to enjoy my loneliness a little bit more.
Go shopping alone.
Read manga and cries [omg I do this all the time and I doubt there's any man who'd understand this behaviour]
Scream RYOTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA when I'm watching One OK Rock's concert.
Rolls around till I bump my head onto something literally when watching Tak Boss.
Play toys meant for 7 to 8 years old kids.
Sleep till noon.
Eat anything I want.
Not eat at all.
Head bang when I'm listening to OOR.
See?
Those things aren't for someone who's in a relationship. Seriously. If I'm a dude and my girlfriend has Ryota on her wallpaper and goes ga-ga over some dude I'm not even interested with, I'd be all jealous. I mean, going ga-ga like a normal person is different. Me and Ryota? It's bordering obsession! Not obsession. No no. Not. Just. Slightly dangerous. Yeah...
So it's like, I need someone who can understand me and try not to change me overnight or expect me to stop me liking my Rock bands or anything I love. Because as much as they try to say it's for my own good,I still feel it's unfair. Someday I'll leave all these anime/rock world.......I think.I'm being realistic here. I mean,I'll mellow down and not scream RYOTAAAAAAAA whenever I see his picture/video/anything. I used to be JUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNN and now I'm not like that anymore. People change.
I changed.
It just takes time.
And I don't want to leave the fandom just yet.
And that is why, commitment = scary word for me.
More than I'm afraid of height.
Okay maybe it's the same level orz
Meh.
Relationship before marriage - all these couples and lovers. Too complicated for my simple brain. Rather do what my mom did.
Marriage and then love. It's not an easy task looking at my parents. But for some reason, it seems sweeter. I want to be like them. Getting old together, date like high school students even when they're both 50 over. That is the kind of commitment I want. I mean, when I'm not afraid of it.
But to find a man who can shape us to be that way..
I'm just not seeing him yet I guess.
Well.
When Allah wills it, I will see him.
For now,
p/s:Though being a fangirl is a commitment, what with the buying their stuffs and all,I'm not afraid of it. ;p
Double p/s: DAAAAAAAAAANGGG! Windows is forcing me to reformat my Ryota BB's mem card. Like hell I would. I'll just get a nu R4. In May. Donkey Kong - you can wait.
There was once I said I'm afraid about not being able to love another person like I love J.
But.
:D
Made it.
I love Ryota more now. And Sho.
Well. Especially Sho sometimes.
Probably because he's...closer to his fans. Like he shows his almost true self. Because seriously, nobody opens up everything to everyone.
But getting to see his quirks, what annoys him and what makes him laugh..
It's..
Mou..
Kore wa suki dake ja nai.
Koi yo koi.
XDDD
Still.
Most of the time I loves my Ryota bb moar~~~
But.
:D
Made it.
I love Ryota more now. And Sho.
Well. Especially Sho sometimes.
Probably because he's...closer to his fans. Like he shows his almost true self. Because seriously, nobody opens up everything to everyone.
But getting to see his quirks, what annoys him and what makes him laugh..
It's..
Mou..
Kore wa suki dake ja nai.
Koi yo koi.
XDDD
Still.
Most of the time I loves my Ryota bb moar~~~
Hensem siut ♥
Thursday 8 March 2012
TMG Convention
I just feel like uploading some photos.
It was fun.
But I was burned.
Hiyake.
-____-"
Sho
Hensem. Siut.
I can't even.
Even if he has moobs.
With body like a wrestler.
But the guitar skill.
The headbanging hair look.
The -
THE FOOD!
He's like my food spammer on twitter.
And the fact that he was all,"I'm gonna slim down." and then post his katsudon lunch.
Sho~
You're hot.
You're awesome.
You're so freaking cute I can't even -
*breaths*
Now I shall focus back on Ryota.
I'll leave Sho and his moobs,good food,hipster glasses and boshis aside.
Not.
:p
I can't even.
Even if he has moobs.
With body like a wrestler.
But the guitar skill.
The headbanging hair look.
The -
THE FOOD!
He's like my food spammer on twitter.
And the fact that he was all,"I'm gonna slim down." and then post his katsudon lunch.
Sho~
You're hot.
You're awesome.
You're so freaking cute I can't even -
*breaths*
Now I shall focus back on Ryota.
I'll leave Sho and his moobs,good food,hipster glasses and boshis aside.
Not.
:p
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